Hahz.. So long never come update my blog le.. Six mths since I last update my blog.. Hahz.. Just finish clearing up those spider web inside my blogger AC.. Lolx.. Ok.. Thats kinda lame..

Many things have happened during this last six mths.. Really loads.. I have learn loads too..

Lets talk bout academic area first.. My last sem was really lucky.. I passed all my module by luck due to heavy moderation.. Lolx.. If not I would have failed.. Cause for my core module Engineering Maths out of the 7 questions I only done 3.. Lolx.. And not all the 3 are completely correct.. So yea.. Really lucky.. My 2 other core module are also similar.. Electronic Circuit (EC) and Digital Electronics (DE) also went to exams with half past six knowledge.. EC out of all the question I only manage to do a few question.. DE too.. Whats more DE I can copy from the person beside me.. Lolx.. So u can imagine how lucky I really am to pass my last sem.. For all the project module no problem cause I'm more of a hands on person.. Lolx.. Worst of the worst only get a C for project base.. Got 1 A 2B 1C and 3D for my overall grading in last sem.. And yea.. All the D's are my core module.. Lolx..

Somehow after mere pass due to moderation of school (cause I think the teachers also lazy to write report too!) I have decided I will want to get a good grade for this sem.. Cause I need to pull up my over G.P.A so that I can score average G.P.A due to my 1st sem lousy grade.. T.T Yea.. Gotta work hard le.. As for this sem all the subject aren't that bad.. At least all the teachers are nice to work with and have no AP.. And this sem do not have that much amount of homework and worksheet.. So kinda really "free".. Just need to do some self revision.. And all the topics are generally easy.. Practice and listen in lecture can already.. Sure can pass de.. If wanna score then nidda a little more hardwork le.. Lolx.. Hope I can so slightly better for this sem.. :D *fingers cross tho..* =x

That's all for my academic.. Lolx.. And bout my class.. Last sem I did not talk to them as frequently and as much as now I do.. Cause maybe due to my anti-social character ba.. Now I do crack jokes with them and do talk to them regarding studies or some other stuff.. Better then last sem.. I feel going to school everyday cause going to school to have fun and learn things in the meanwhile feels really great.. Better then last time go to school with sianz mood and frowning face.. Yupps.. Because after so many things had happened I start to take things easy and mindset somehow a little more "opened" now.. Yea.. No point take things so hard as it will only make one feels demoralized and depressed.. Happy also one day passed.. Sad also one day passed.. Might as well live your day to the fullest and make the best outta it?? So for now I rather choose the happy way or living whenever I can.. :D Yea..

This few mths also have been constantly talking to my TKD senior Fadhil a.k.a Ali Baba and Christine.. Thought Christine have her probs on deciding her future career path but talking to her has also let me learnt bout myself and what can I learn from her step too.. Yea.. What I learn in "Sun Tze Art of War" can be applied and given as advice to her.. :D As for Fadhil, that time he told me something that make me realize that in the past I cant really let things go.. He said last time a Mc exhange programme in Spore invited all the Mc CEO from all over the region.. Then one Germany branch CEO manage to talk to him and find him potential in handling bigger task and is a good employee.. Thus before the Germany CEO leave he gave Fadhil a Mc badge from German.. Fadhil work place have one girl from indonesia attached to spore Mc for manager training I suppose.. So before she left Fadhil gave her the bagde..

I really have to say I respect him for that.. Cause if I were him I will not give away such a rare and prestigeous badge without thinking twice or hestitaing.. So that's something I really learn from him.. That is one must able to take and go.. And ranking or badge is secondary.. What ever you do at the end of the day is you must learn something.. Not the reward or the result.. Yupps.. At times usually people look at the rewards and results.. Hence they generally might be stuck in the cycle as they never learn.. Yea.. Experience is the crucial and the fundamentals.. Thanks Fad..

As for my personal life nothing much happened.. Just that back then tuesday Ren Hui invited me to go Hougang RC TKD training with his cousin.. That is another Leng Kee club opened by Ren Hui's friend I suppose.. Then yea.. Joined the training as enthusiasm and focus cause long time never train so heard le.. But there I manage to see a chio girl in the class.. Yea.. Chio girl.. She's a BB too.. Just promoted only tho.. She was left to take the class as Ren Hui mentioned that the main instructor busy.. Yea.. At first did not really go and notice her because so long never had the chance to train properly and hard.. But after lesson manage to talk to her shortly bout TKD stuff then went off with Ren Hui and his cousin.. But the next day till now her face still etch in my mind..

And the feeling of liking someone is there.. Have I really fallen for her or I just need someone to be there?? For now I think I really need to cool down to analyze the situation and take any action if it is confirmed?? Yea..

Cause for I have let go of my past.. I have got my thoughts straight for now.. Because in the past it was me who can't let go of things which had already happened.. Knowing it was impossible to turn back time to change the situation yet I was holding onto the hopes that the impossible will happen.. Hence for now I have think through all and decide to move forwad instead of staying on the spot and remain motionless.. The feeling is great.. But for now all I need is courage to take the first step.. Hopefully the first step will be a successful one.. :D

~Ghost

Hahz.. So long never come in to blog le.. Cause dont have the mood and lazy.. Yupps.. Hmm.. Somehow alot of thing happened recently.. Yupps..

I will write what i can recall.. Yupps.. Hmm.. This weeks is my CT week.. But im not prepared for it seriously.. Yea.. Cause did not study for it.. Wait till the eleventh hour then start studying.. =x Yupps.. But luckily this CT on consist only 20% of the whole semester marks.. If not sure die arh.. Nidda jump down from OCBC building.. Hopefully real miracles do happen and i can just get a grade "D" can?? Pls pls pls.. Just pass also happy.. Better then nothing.. Yupps..

During the holidays.. Yea.. "Holidays" indeed.. *Roll eyes* Just 2 weeks for us to self studies.. Did not really get to do what i wanted.. Go back to malaysia and unwind.. Do my stuff properly and finish self study objectives.. Just half past six for things done during the holidays..

Out of three make up lessons I only manage to turn up for one.. The C# programming one.. Somehow real slack during the holidays.. Yet a little busy to do something that i want.. Time seems to be never enough for me.. Sigh..

But i did manage to finish my "Bomb" project.. At least i finish one thing.. Properly.. Yea.. The light chaser wire wrapping.. Luckily it can work.. If not i will want to cry sia.. Cause that time i do till almost finish le but forgot to link one of the pin to the light.. Or the wrong pin to light i think.. Then unwarp and redo again.. Luckily this time is a complete one.. Phew!

For my TKD poomse competition during the hols i got nothing.. Yea.. Haiz.. WAs out in the semi finals.. But yea.. We got no eliminations so i got into semi finals straight.. SO is yea like... ...kicked out in the first round.. Sad.. :( And im the only one from bishan CC with no medal.. Really ashamed of myself.. T.T Nvm.. I will train harder for next year competition.. So to make sure get something back.. Cause till last thursday when TKD lesson i do my pattern halfway Rocky sir point out all my mistake.. Alot of 'em.. =x Haiz.. Seems like i always have to learn the hard way.. But its ok.. As long as i reach my goals can liaoz.. :) Hopefully I can take part int next year competition and get something back..

But for now... ...there is Pesta Sukan sparring competition coming.. Will train hard for that one and hopefully sir allow me and fadhil to join... ...and will get something back.. Yupps.. *Fingers cross*

Hmm.. Now wanna to study for my test but gotta migraine.. Always hit by it when i really need my focus span.. -.- Damn migraine.. How i wish there is a cure for migraine.. Hmm..

Anyway.. Glad that school reopens.. Cause then i do not need to be bored to death daily.. And yea.. When school reopens... ... hmm.... there will be World Skill Competition (WSC) training on wed.. :D:D:D Well i like the WSC training cause its really fun to set up and play with those networking wires and tools.. :D:D:D And yea actually there is another reason for that too.. There is a girl with nice smile in the WSC training.. Then every wednusday can go there and see her.. XD Her smile is really attractive tho.. MAN!! What am i thinking.. =x=x=x Hahz.. But its ok.. Just peek at her only when she smiles.. Nothing wrong with that.. XD Muhaha.. Yea.. Hope the WSC training will resume or there will be more.. Hahz.. XD Looking forward for that.. XD

~Ghost

Hmm.. So long never blog oready.. Damn blogger server break down.. -..- Yea.. So many things happened recently.. Yea.. So many thing to do too yet got so little time.. Yea..

Start with good news 1st.. Well.. I just got a Crumpler Sling Bag.. :D YAY!! 'The Western Lawn' model.. Yea.. Its brown and orange.. What a good contrasting colour.. Really love it loads.. :D Have yearn to own a sling bag since last year.. =x But my wish is finally fufilled after I used the ang pao my parents gimme for my birthday.. Was given 150 in total.. But the bag cost 95 bucks.. So yea.. Can only afford 'The Western Lawn' model.. Economical.. But its rugged and durable tho.. From the material can see and feel.. :D Never really mind bout the model.. Cause it is cosidered as a present from my parents.. So anything from them I will accept.. Indirectly tho.. :D Well.. At least i use the money on smth useful this time ok.. Not like last time waste it on junk stuff.. =x For the remaining amt of money.. I blew it on bills and daily expenses.. Well.. I just can meet my day needs so yea.. =x Gotta be thrifty somehow.. =x

CRUMPLER BAG ROCKS.. :D

Now the bad news.. =x Hmm.. Really gotta lotsa things to do.. But I got not enought time.. T.T How i hope there is 25 hours everyday.. =x Now I got some projects waiting for me to do.. Really morale low tho but I will turn the impossible to possible.. I will finish all my task as the deadline is given.. Im sure I can do it and I will.. Project for me are Light Chaser and Creativity invention for now.. Light Chaser is ok.. Cause what I have to do is only follow the drawing of the circuits tho I have to re-arrange it.. The rest are just hands skills which I dont think there is any prob for me as I have just tried out soldering things on circuit board myself.. Hence pick up the skills myself.. :D For creativity.... ....me and my partner Jansen nidda come up with new ideas to propose to teacher.. If teacher accept the proposal then good.. If not.. Come up with new ideas agn lo.. =x Hmm.. But so far our idea has been rejected.. Sad.. Nidda come up with new ideas.. Damn that goddamnit module.. Why must school come up with such a s2pid module.. Seriously being creative cant earn a living in spore la.. Only licking balls can do.. I think school should start teaching students on how to lick balls instead..

Up ahead there is still C# programming project and PCB board design wating for me.. Those are killers tho.. If one F up those projects... ...there goes his 1st sem.. Bye Bye.. Nidda repeat agn.. Cause for this module our grades are mainly on projects.. So yea.. Finally my english language project.. That one still can do.. I have got ideas for proposal oready.. So yea.. Can relax for tt.. But ths rest.. Its strangling me like hangman..

Gonna to get a tablet PC soon.. But come to think of cost.. WTF.. Man.. Now before earn $$$ nidda study.. And study need $$$.. WTF.. $$$ have not roll in but its oready rolling out instead.. Spore really sucks sia.. Damn it.. Really feel sianz now.. Morale low.. Who cares? Who can help? Nobody.. Nevermind.. Depending on myself is better then depending on others.. Those so called friends will leave me in lurch when I really need help.. And they help with terms and condition apply.. Life's like that.. So yea.. Don't ever tell me how nice tomorrow can be or how nice the world can be.. I will tell you "FUCK YOU!!".. It can only be nice when you have $$$..

~Ghost
Sian-sation and pissed..

Hmm.. Long time never come here to blog oready.. Kinda abit lazy and nth to blog about.. Yea.. That's why my blog are only updated after a period of time.. Hahz.. Yea.. My apologies to those who frequent drop by my blog and hope to see some update but end up to disappoint you instead.. Really sorry..

Hmm.. 3rd week of poly life.. Well... ... Poly life is kinda slack yet busy.. Hmm... How should I put it.. Well.. Slack because of the subjects that we had per day.. If like secondary school subjects,we will be only considered studying bout 3 subjects per day.. Lolx.. Kinda slack huh.. For the busy.. Hahz.. The projects.. Kinda got 4-5 projects.. Not really big ones but could kills if not properly done.. Cause our semester result are from there.. And attendance.. Written test I think very little percentage only.. Yea..

So far my class is still fine.. Tho there are some smell of gunpowder.. But is ok.. Cause just some small attitude incident.. Lolx.. Im suppose our class will still be united no matter what.. Yea.. Only my class from ECCE course move around the campus in a class.. Almost.. Lolx.. Yea.. Unbelievable right.. Lolx.. :P

For school work.. Everybody is working so hard.. Only me kinda slack.. =x Lolx.. Yea.. Gotta buck up le.. Not least... ... Now I don't play that much BF2 le ok.. :P Yea.. But I still can adapt to poly life and can catch up fast.. Xcept fot maths.. The killer.. I don't know that engineering maths = C maths.. @.@ WTH.. Lolx.. Kinda compilcated.. But nvm.. I shall master it.. :D Impossible is nothing.. Lolx.. :P The rest of the things regarding my course are fun.. Practical.. Project.. Computer programming.. Playing with "spiders" and resistor or capacitor.. Kinda fun.. Lolx.. Play while we learn.. :D Like playhouse like that.. :P

For my TKD.. Gonna take part in poomse competition le.. Have to learn Dan 1 to 4 pattern.. Kinda hard.. Hence need time to learn and practice it.. But not bad le ok.. For a mth I can learn all the patterns.. So far in the midst of Dan 3.. =x Will jia you.. :D Hopefully can get some medal back.. :D If I am able get a medal for this competition, I will retire after this from those TKD competition thing le.. Cause I learn TKD just for solely for passion only.. Nothing else..

For my life... ... It gets kinda better.. At least I enjoy the polytechnic I am in now.. Getting engross in my stuff.. Rather then slack till siaoz like last time.. At least I am living with some aim and goals in my life rather like last time.. Yea.. :D

However recently have been reflecting.. Those things are temporary only.. Cause I don't really have a firm and long term goal.. Still searching for it.. Yea.. Want to have a goal or aim that can occupy my after my poly graduation and NS.. Other then that... ...also find that Im somehow pathetic.. Hmm.. I am one with flaws instead of forte.. Im not good at everything.. Really.. Everything.. Lousy leader, useless person and so on and forth.. Hmm.. Man.. Start to wonder why Im put to this Earth for.. Hopefully can have changer in my life for the better..

Hmm.. Looking around I also find that all my friends generally are occupied.. Yea.. Means they got partner.. So sad that Im still alone.. This let me have flash back of what happened on the christmas 2 yrs back... ... A slightest error that made me regret till now.. Seriously.. Although I have learnt to let go from this incident, it is still the biggest mistake and regret of my life.. Hmm.. A mistake that I did not learn to treasure what I have got.. A regret that I did not salvage the situation.. How I hope I can turn back time... ... ... After all that reflection of thoughts.. I would really want to tell you.. "My feeling for you hasn't fade off abit.. It had only been blinded at time when I need someone to be there.. You are IRREPLACABLE in my heart.."

Hmm.. Let this serve me as a reminder to bear in mind that I have to treasure what I have got, always.... From this I can only tell people as an advice that I find it most meaningful.. "Tresaure what you have got befor you lose it and then regret when it is too late.." ..

~Ghost

"Those who have the ability and power to help yet they did nothing to help it must share the guilt and responsibility for the dire outcome.. "

~Ghost

Hmm.. What left over now are only memories.. Memories that let me be who I am today.. MY life's gonna start afresh huh.. Kinda glad about it..

Learning to let go is not that easy.. But finally done that.. And I learned how to.. :) Looking back.. Hmm.. How screwed up my life once was.. But now not anymore.. I shall control my life.. I will never let ppl control my life.. Nor fate that always sport fun of people..

Now I look at people around me.. Hmm.. Seems like its time I needa do smth to help out the society.. There are lotsa unfortunate people who really need help.. Kinda sad that those who have the ability to help doesnt.. In fact is those many commoners come together as a whole to help.. Its kinda sad.. Sigh.. Hope things will turn out well for these unfortunate ones..

Hmm.. Ytd morning was telling my mom that I wanna get a bicycle.. But without listening to me she just say "NO!".. Haiz.. I think she is more stubborn then I am.. Anything also NO NO NO.. I have balanced the pros n cons and find thatt it is really worthwhile to get a bicycle.. A economical one yet rugged.. So can use to travel around.. Hmm.. Nvm.. Since she wun want to get one for me then I will save up to get one myself.. Old ppl are like that.. Explaining stuff to them is like talking to walls.. -.-

Anyway for FT.. I have shared some of my principles with ya.. But dont mis-interprete the quotes k? They have several meanings de.. So take ya time to apply the principle.. You will find them useful at some point of time.. As for your friend.. I gotta agree with her.. Cause I shouldnt be meddling with my friends life.. I will have to let them learn to fall and pick themselve up.. But during those times of picking yaself up is the hardest.. But dont worry.. Just remember.. I will be there with you.. Cause you are my buddy.. A friend in need is a friend indeed.. I know cause I have been through those kinda days.. 3 years plus in hell for me in fact.. Those were the days that once torture me.. Anyway I sincerely want to thank that friend of yours for reminding me.. :)

Thats all for today.. Kinda isomia nowadays so cant really sleep.. Gaming time.. X)

~Ghost

Hmm.. So long never blog oready.. This blog is dusty man.. Hmm.. Really lotsa things happened recently.. Got my O lvl result.. L1R4 w/o CCA is 27.. L1R4 w CCA is 25.. Was posted to republic Polytechnic initially.. But appeal into Nanyang Polytechnic.. 1st choice Electronic,Computer & Communications engineering.. I got into my 1st chioce.. Lolx.. Never thought that would appeal would success..

Well.. Though the courses is not the one that I liked but its ok.. I just need to get top 5% of the cohort to get into U.. Then in Uni I still could jump course.. :) Yea.. So now really gotta work real hard le in polytechnic..

Registration for the poly was kinda hassle.. =x Though got internet to help out but we still nidda send smth to NYP personally.. Might as well do everything online huh?? Lolx.. Yea.. Past few days had been running here and there to do the registration.. The only thing I have not done is my NS deferment.. =x Will do it by monday.. Yea..

Anyway this course I got into there is FT A.K.A the dino as my senior to guide me.. So I do not really need to fret that much.. Lolx.. She says she will gimme free guides n tuition.. :) But actually she is not tt senior.. She was my former classmates.. Lolx.. For the reason I dont think I nidda explain le huh.. Lolx.. You sure can guess it.. =X

Anyway just few days ago I just learned smth.. I leanred how to let go.. Yea.. Let things go that no longer belongs to you spiritually and physically.. Yea I know its hard.. But just dont know how I did that..

Yes.. Those gd and bad memories still lurk in my mind.. But now I will take the gd ones to remind me of the happy times.. As for the bad ones.. Take it as a lesson learnt.. Well without those bad ones I wont be who I am today.. Really thanks to those who have really let me learned and grow up.. Whether friend or foe..

And just now I did smth that I never expect myself to do.. I explain bout the past to YiLing why during those days when I was with her I seldom smile.. Im someone who think far ahead of my time.. So I would think of the future.. Like :"What if I could not support my loved ones and my family? Will they suffer like what I have gone through??".. Cause I do not really want those around me to suffer like I do now.. Thats why during those times with her I tend to think of those questions.. Thus somehow I appeared that I frowed.. =x I keep this to myself as I do not want her to worry for things uncalled for too.. But I do not know that things will turn out like that..

Even though we cant be lovers but we still could be friends.. Im really glad.. :) Glad that I have undone the last knot in my mind for a year plus.. Glad that i have really leaned smth.. Glad that I have grown up and finally glad that I learned how to let go.. Thanks YiLing.. You let me learn loads.. :)

What I had learned so far.. Share your problems with your loved ones.. They sure would be glad to help out.. Even if they cant they still will give you their support in anyway.. Spiritually or mentally.. Also.. Treasure what you have got now.. Dont wait till you lose it then you start to regret.. By then it would be too late.. This is really a useful piece of advice from my experience I would like to tell others.. So yea.. =)

~Ghost